Apparently he took the hint; he's definitely keeping his 'change.'

Read this news article, from which I will be getting some of my quotes. --> http://www.google.com/hostednews/ap/article/ALeqM5juui7didNwh_vzBmJyrbjxkeF-IgD9GR0APG0

With Obama publicly campaigning for his chosen running Senators in Missouri and Nevada, he is blatantly disregarding the statement he made during his OWN campaign about 'bridging the partisan divide.' Yeah, he sure is coming through on a lot...and that 'change' he's promised us? Apparently he's keeping it for his own gain, and that of his own party.

Let's hope that these states see reason and elect Republican, conservative representatives, who can see REASON and understand that the will of the people is what makes (or made, as it seems to be) this nation great.

According to Erica Werner, "Obama's been singling out individual Republican House members for comments he says show they care more about corporations than people."

And this is so much different from showing that HE (as our country's leader) cares more about power, socialism, and 'looking after your own' than the people of this country that HE leads? That elected him into office?

Trust me...push them far enough, and you, Mr. President, will see that the will of the people WILL prevail, and you will be OUT of office just as easily as you were put INTO it.
Does anyone wonder if his thought pattern is that of "Well, maybe if I try to shift the mud-slinging onto them, and make the people think that THEY are the ones who don't care about what the people want, that the people themselves won't pay as much attention to what I'M doing."

A friend of mine pointed out that he is not a great leader, or commander-in-chief fit to run this 'once great nation.' He's merely a celebrity. And I completely agree! He did not win because he was a good, strong leader with any experience in leading a people as great as ours (or used to be), but because he was 'charismatic' and a celebrity.

He promised change, and it's coming in the form of socialism; a tact that is going to RUIN our country. He 'won over' the illegal immigrants, the part of the african-american population who still hold 'racism' over everyone's heads, and the white people who feel guilty about the aforementioned racism. Not to mention the liberal college kids who felt that he was going to somehow be doing us a favor by keeping us on our parents' insurance till we were 25. Go out, get a job, and learn to support yourself. Geez, learn a little independence! That is what our nation was BASED on from the get-go! Other nations make fun of ours now because Obama is NOT a leader. We should be feared and respected as the great nation we once were, not made the laughingstock of the world.

This nation has been hibernating for far too long. We stirred and lashed out when 9/11 hit, when an outside enemy disturbed our peace, but since then we've retreated back into our cave. Now we have an INSIDE enemy trying to turn our country into a socialist economy that the government controls. This, in my opinion, is far worse. For if we have an inside enemy, that makes us far more vulnerable to outside attacks. But now, it seems the people have realized that all of this 'change' he's been promising us, all of these good, great things that he 'promised' to do, have not become a reality, and it doesn't look like they will anytime soon.

During his campaign, did he ever set down a plan for achieving some of these things? When asked the question, did he ever say, "I will accomplish THIS first, and then upon that foundation I will build the rest of my plan. Here are the steps, A, B, and C, and that's how I plan to govern." No, of course not. When asked what he wanted to accomplish during his presidency, all he promised was 'change.' Oh, and making the hard-working people who have labored for what they have all their lives SUPPORT the lazy, greedy people of our country who have decided "I'll just let the government help me with this one."

If I, as a single, white, 20-something, technically uneducated FEMALE can live on my own, hold down a job (two jobs, actually) and support myself ON MY OWN without the aid of the government, I'm pretty sure everyone else can too. I understand that the unemployment rate is high (thanks to the grand economy that with ever bill passed seems to fall into a deeper and deeper hole), but sometimes, you can't always have the job they want. I know for a fact that a lot of people don't have a job because they think it's BENEATH them to work in food service, or in an office answering phones. Sometimes, you don't always have a choice.

Know what's really horrendous? That if this country keeps heading in the direction it's going, if I posted something like this in the future, it could be considered treason for 'slandering the all-powerful socialist President' (who, at that point, wouldn't be a President at all, but a dictator) and I could be arrested. Big Brother society anyone? Reminiscent of Hitler anyone?

It is time to WAKE. UP. November elections are just around the corner, and ladies and gentlemen, we need all the damn help we can get. Go vote. And hope and pray that we can get some officials in office who will temper the will of this almost-madman who is so hellbent on our country collapsing in on itself, and, like Rome, into ruin.

What Can You Do?

What can you do when you don't have the energy to cry tears that you don't have left?

What can you do when every decision you make shatters another small piece of your soul?

When you have to walk away from something that you think might be amazing.

When you choose to bury yourself in layers of bad judgment and ice, just to get away from the pain.

When every bitter, twisted, amazing, delicious moment in your memory floods to the surface after years of being forgotten?

When keeping busy no longer means not being idle, but rather that you'll be too busy to remember.

When mania is covering depression.

When control is masking confusion.

When you realize that you're so sick in the head and at heart that even years of therapy probably couldn't help you begin to fix what's wrong with you.

When you thought you were doing fine, and in the span of 48 hours, realize that NOTHING is fine.

What can you do when you try to walk away, but find that you haven't actually been moving at all?

Now I've deluded myself into thinking I was walking away. But I wasn't. I was motionless. I just chose to make myself believe that I had moved far, far away.

Now I've forced myself to finally make that first step.

The worst part is, my judgment is awful right now because of it. Manic, depressive. Manic, depressive. I've gone completely psychotic.

However, this doesn't worry me.

It's that previous statement that worries me.

It doesn't BOTHER me that I have done so many things lately that I swore I'd never do in my lifetime.

But the fact that it doesn't bother me DOES worry me.

I get a rush from it, a high, if you will. How far can I push the boundaries I have always seen as 'safe?' What if there aren't any boundaries anymore? How far could I go?

That could be very, very dangerous.

Let me add just another thing to my list of things I 'have' to do. Let me fill up every hour of every day and night with things that are exhausting, physically and mentally.

Let me go insane.

I want to laugh and cry and scream and run. I want to get away, I want to be someone new. I am tired of being confused and torn two different ways; either by conscience and guilt or words and thoughts. I want to cut the threads of my old life and let them drift away, if only so I can spin myself a cocoon of protective layers against anything and everything around me.

What happens when trust means nothing anymore?

When love is just a fairytale?

When what you are is something you'd never want to see in anyone else. When who you are is something you want to have nothing to do with?

Jesus, I need therapy.

DHT - "I Go Crazy"

This song came on while I was at work today. I had forgotten about it until now...

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Hello boy it's been a while
Guess you'll be glad to know
That I've learned how to laugh and smile
Getting over you was slow
They say old lovers can be good friends
But I never thought I'd really see you
I'd really see you again

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes
I still go crazy
No my heart just can't hide that old feeling inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby you know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

You say she satisfies your mind
Tells you all of her dreams
I know how much that means to you
I realize that I was blind
Just when I thought I was over you
I see your face and it just ain't true
No it just ain't true

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes
I still go crazy
That old flame comes alive
It's starts burning inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby
You know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

I go crazy
You know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy
No my heart just can't hide
That old feeling inside
Way deep down inside
I go crazy
You know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

Crazy

My Life. As it is.

I believe that new career changes daunt us all.

I believe that moving to a new place daunts us all.

I also believe that I am NOT daunted by either of these things.

I am seriously considering moving. Not just moving somewhere else in SA, but moving AWAY. I have been stuck in this city (or the surrounding areas) for My. Entire. Life. And I am going crazy because of it.

I at one point had given considerate thought to moving to NYC; however, as an 'uneducated' individual, there wasn't a lot for me there except for (most likely) a lot of debt and probably hardship. Something I'm not a stranger to here. A friend of mine also pointed out that New York is cold for 6 months out of the year (rather than the more-often-than-not 'balmy' 2-3 months of winter here), and I am NOT a fan of the cold. So, while New York might be a good destination for vacation, I have decided that at least at this time, it is not a good place for me to be permanently.

So, my mind wandered to other places and other prospects, and fell on (duh) Austin. This hasn't been a new thought, however, I just have finally started putting serious consideration into it. Though I haven't made up my mind yet, I HAVE decided to at least look into the real estate in the Austin area to see what is there and what I might be able to afford.

That being said, I am also looking into bartending. Now, before anyone jumps into a stereotypical frenzy over the idea of one such as me bartending, please remember that cruise ships and nice resorts also need bartenders, and this would give me the opportunity to travel as well; something I've been itching to do since I was young. It is a very mobile job, as bartenders are needed everywhere, so if I get bored in one place, all it takes is for me to finish up whatever lease I will be in at the time and then move again. Some might say that is an immature way to live life, but I beg to differ. It's an independent way to live life, and I'm so SICK of being dependent! So, I am now going to try and begin this journey to figure out who I am, and where I want to be.